Firstly, ur a regular forever, newly commission pc's come in and trample all over your style of working.
Two, your a female and people watch your every move.
The platoon has got 3 new pc's, two are spec convert officers. One pull string, the other? I have no idea how he got through. Maybe cause he knows how to talk.. But he is so rigid. Everything must be his old um it's way..my lord.
Third one is a psc scholar. Asshole.
I hate them except for one, they think that being commissioned they have the rights to do anything they want. And to not do things they dont want.
N tells me he convert cause he wants to see the bigger picture and not be a follower. Specialists will not be only followers if they are good specialists. Besides, leaders must be able to lead and know when to follow. Then, your a good leader. In my opinion? I think he just wants to escape doing all the dirty work. He is lazy. It's so obvious. And it's also very obvious that the wants the whole world to know when he is doing work. Something like fixing up a projector. Come on, I have done that million of times.my guys?they do it all the time. Such a big extravagant effort?then my guys need months of off just fixing up the projectors. He tell me, I'm trying to differentiate between being a specialist and an officer. If you don't know,why convert? If you tell me your such a brilliant specialist, why sign on an officer? Who enjoys being a specialist and still convert to be an officer? Cause he doesn't want be a follower? Then, he is not a true leader.
Hai, shall update more tmr.
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- Location:Singapore, Thong Hoe Village
I am so looking forward to going to philippines!! :)
What with all the work and preparation.. I need this break. I always need a holiday like that before every huge milestone.
It's to re-energize.. And be more focused. All the information I am taking in, can get really overwhelming.
Besides, I'm not really good in such things.
Going to start my studies soon, only one problem though.. The study loan is going to make me choose between car or studies. It will be such a huge load to my monthly income :( making me think of taking a sponsorship again. But if saf wants me to take something related to IT. I'm so NOT going to be taking an IT degree. I might as well drop dead.
Shall watch more glee, smallville, vampire diaries!!!!
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- Location:Singapore, Kampong Sungai Tengah
brandon just didnt want me to go down to a pub with him. with ppl both he and i know.
he said "u going ah? huh, then i cannot enjoy alrdy."
if it was you or any other girl, will u still go with him? when u very well know he doesnt want you to be around.
he said.. u wanto go meh? of course! they r ppl i know, my guys, my friends.
i girl. so what? i cannot just hang out even if i dont drink?
but thats not the point. point is the fact that he doesnt need me to be around to have fun.
its not comforting at all. to know that ur bf has more fun WITHOUT u.
what does that make me, boring or just plain lousy.
sometimes i really feel redundant to him. like im just there for the sake of being there.
he doesnt confide in me, doesnt talk much to me. all he does is play his games, download his stuff..
driving around.. he just stick to his games...
when i talk about the serious stuff, a house, marriage. he shuts off. yes, no money. but a house takes at least 3yrs to build. marriage can save. im not very unreasonable. i dont need an extravagant wedding. its ideal. but.. if its not possible.. im just happy being married to him.
but i duno if im sticking to the right choices. will we ever start saving at all?
im just full of doubts. i know, im 23yrs old. im still rather young. but i must start thinking bout such things..
i dont want a kid when im so OLD. i want to participate in overseas marathons with my kids.
i have such dreams.
n it SUCKS to know. im never going to fulfil such dreams.
HAI :(
Anyways.. i think if i get silver. i'll try to get one more slot with peggy. probably on the 8th?
HAI.HAIHAI!
we are so so so watched, our BAD news spreads like a wildfire, and our GOOD DOINGS get stepped on. overwritten and forgotten. but this happens to girls who WORKS and dont announce to the whole world whatever good their doing. just making sure their guys enjoy working as an NSF. afterall, they are forced to be here. what do u expect? make the 2yrs fruitful for them. but to girls who announces on FB whatever their doing.... whether real or not. r the ppl who SHINE like a huge ass DIAMOND. but is actually worthless.
im so tired after this exercise. and im tired of the way ppl see me, i work so much. but they say the other do better. just cause he... wayangs more. and announces that he is sick during ex and not take mc cause he know is ex period. hello, i had mc. and i still wento work. sucks la.
nvm, i go slp.
if i dont have this bn to work in, i'll be focusing alot and looking forward to christmas!
its the season of GIVING :)
wanto just share and see the smiles on ppl's faces, especially kids. i rmb when i was young, i always look forward to the opening of presents. had lots n lots. this days, i only see them/me/us recieving chocolates. i know, its the intention that counts, but that's a bit dampening on the spirits. come on la, CHRISTMAS. i anytime go supermarket also can buy chocolate, mama shop also have lo.
well.. its not all about the presents, its the gathering, laughing and just forgetting all about work. if only... i am still in MCC. im sure they'll be on for exchanging of gifts! then we'll have lots of fun. we will gather.. and celebrate.
well.. too bad la. i will go christmas shopping this weekend! YAY!
regards,
regynna
- Mood:indescribable
also, am learning driving at a relatively constant pace. 1wk like thrice. if availability allows.
TP date: 27th OCT.
then i'll be allowed to drive here n there :) it will save me lots of time but waste lots of money :)
better then taking cab here n there. peak hour charge all...
looking forward to MCC Sept Cohesion.. then the PS course cohesion.. aha.
lots to think.
also spectrum's ladies affair. mooncake festival!
okie la. need to slp. nights!
- Mood:
bored
now brandon and me works in two different timings. so much so, we hardly see each other. much less talk to each other. im having a difficult time adjusting to it, whole he ADAPTS almost immediately. difference between men n women. they are not sentimentally attached. its the sad sad reality.
Things i wanto do together with Brandon :).. so far..
- Universal Studios (weekend stay at one hotel w some other couples)
- Bintan for a weekend, relax
- Race in go-kart
- hang out in malaysia for 1 day
- run an overseas marathon
- start an online business
did i tell? i put on about.. 4kg since APRIL when we took for BMI. now im 59.5kg. once it touches 60kg. im dead. BUT. as much as i wanto lose weight, i LOVE EATING!! and i cannot stop eating :) then im too tired to run/exercise/yoga. YEP, i know i know.. excuse LA!. no time? find time.. tired? too bad laa. just move it.. right.
some food places i would like to intro..
- Barracks @ House (lobster pasta, whooohooo!)
- Wisma's Bistro [duno what's it called] (seafood pasta, $20 BUT ingredients ALOT)
- Giraffe [Opp Plaze Sing] (laksa spaghetti, yummy fusion)
- Bangkok Jam [Great World] (their tom yam is really spicy and tasty)
i wonder if O school will allow plump ppl to join their dance.. i feel like going back to the hip hop days. or not.. i'll just start piano again. but that doesnt help me slim down what. hahah. good to feel close to the musical side again. and STUDIES. dang. and finances to support my studies. army doesn't pay me enough darn it. as in, i am not earning enough to fulfill my desires in life. maybe i am just asking for too much :(
anyways, let me tell you how many runs i am due for!!
- Yellow Ribbon Project Run 10km
- AHM 21km
- Tour De Trail Run 10km
- Pink Ribbon Run/Walk 5km
- Mizuno Wave Run 10km clases with 6.
- Newton 30km
- New Balance Real Run 15km
- Great Eastern 5km (running with loretta, that's why 5km)
- Standard Chartered Marathon 42km
I am still short on distance as training. shall go plan route now :) BYE
watching tom n jerry's, u know how rare it is to see them at peace... but the very first episode i watch was that. it made me smile.. haha.
right now, brandon is playing mj with kelvin, val and shane. im not into that.. so here i am. surfing the net, browsing through the blogshops and watching cartoon at the same time :) it feels kinda good..
just now, we were talking about flats, education, marriage, engagement rings.. it sounds pretty far fetched. but it is happening to couples our age now. but, it still seems rather impossible for all of these to happen to me now. just wanto first, get my license then to persue my education. and of course, i am going to rope brandon in to study with me. willingly of course. no flats and stuff. its for the future... HA.
olrights, cant really focus on typing now. check out FB for pinnacle pictures:)
brandon left singapore ytd and has gone to taiwan, miss him lots but i guess i'll survive. this is the first time we will not see each other for a whole month. plus, his birthday is on the 30th may.
upset that i cannot celebrate it with him. but i guess it will make do after the 30th.
now just got to focus on the whole exercise in taiwan. deployed outfield and many days :)
i think i need to buy more prickly heat powder la... and wet tissues. still must camou on.
nvm nvm. have a massive headache, better not to think about work.
today i left sengkang about 12 plus, came home and took rocky out to cut his nails. came back.
immediately the headache came... msg brandon a goodnight msg. didnt tell him bout the headache, ltr he will worry. HA.
ahh. i just miss him.. but. i'll make it! hope the 30th may comes soon :)
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